2016: A Wake Up Call

Hello.

It's March 5th and I'm typing the summary of what I've been through these past 2 months in 2016. 

2016 has woken me up from the past that hold my mind. This number, 2016, opened up my heart and speak to me like a best friend. It's not even a half way yet this year, but I already feel all the positive energies come within. I am a brand new and facing world like a pro. Not that I'm being cocky or what, but I feel great about myself. I finally accept me, the whole package of myself. World looking and I'm staring. Boosting up my self esteem never been this good. 

I used to be a human that overthink everything, I am now, but it's kinda different from yesterdays, these things I'm thinking over is more like.., the important one. Now, I can sort out between things that I have to think about and things I have to let go, because keeping negative energy is the worst thing anyone can do, so don't. By this new mind to think off, I bring out the idea to always be kind to people. No, I'm not an evil back then, but human supposed to do sins, and be bad, and et cetera, et cetera. I will always try to be kind to everyone I meet. Simply because I have no idea what battle they have fought about in life and I want people to be kind to me too. So, yes, it is that simple. 

Other than that, 2016 also giving me a courage. A courage to against my fear which is going back to my Dad's house. A home that I've been leaving for about five years ago. It turns out not so bad, it is actually good. I feel relief and grateful. Things I fear the most is not a big deal at all. I can breath the fresh air of rainy town and sniffing the joy of being there. I know that the power that lead me to be a brave human is being sincere and honest to ourselves. For anything that have been through, to anyone that hurts, back then and now. 

One thing for sure I have to do from now on is to please everyone, especially my Mom and Dad because they are the angels that God sent for me. Regardless of their mistakes and things I don't like, they already give me a bunch of happiness, joy, and things I like more than I can ask them out.

A screenshot from Cosmopolitan's Snapchat

Questions keeps coming and answers will appear. Faith has brought me to life I've never imagined before, but exciting! 

2016, thank you for waking me up! :) 

Cheers,

Gendis.

Things & Words

Hi!

What's up? 

This is the last week of midterm test and so far it all went well. I'm studying hard (and eating even harder, no wonder that I gain some weight during this midterm test lol) and I hope that I will get good scores for all the subjects! Aamiin... 

After a long hiatus of myself not making any poems or stories or any literature kinda thing, I miss my time to make one. So, I take a look on my old work and smiling while re-reading it. I was so innocent back at the time and life has been more challenging years by years, I'm not that girl in my work anymore. I can see that all of my work is almost related to sadness. Hmm... Interesting much? I know myself better and better thru analyzing my work because it actually represents me, represent all things that happened and making me.

It's my very first book: Collection of short stories (2014)

I'm thinking to start posting my work here, in my blog. My work are all done in Bahasa Indonesia because I'm not a pro to make masterpiece in English, my grammar sucks :p Gonna post it on the next post... So, stay tune!

Much love!

Cheers,

Gendis.

Why and What

Why do I blog?

Oh, hi! It's gonna be a short post, I promise.

I'm answering my own question to myself as an opening for my seventh post here. I've been blogging back in the days, but never committed to do it well. I kept being a lazy little blogger and didn't even care with this thingy. You can still open my old blog Cotton Candy and Chocolate and you can totally judge me. I am that girl, I've been experiencing that time. Now, I would like to make a commitment to myself to blog. I want to 'photograph' my life in words, publish it in this blog, so I can read it again in the other day. I have to admit that it feels awesome to have a blog, even that I've just written less than 10 posts here, but hey! It's my blog anyway :p And I'm not sure if there is anyone that is interested to read my blog, but it's fine as long as I don't do something bad, yeah? So, the blog is basically my e-diary. 

What's going on?

Move on to last month report, September was great. Kinda shocking, but it was not a big deal, really. I thought last month was the time that I adjust to the society in my major at the campus and I'm pretty sure that I'm going to rock it well as the time goes by. I told you before in my last post that I'm majoring in something that I can call it my passion, but not my people. I already got some projects to do in this third semester with some new people and there are some struggle to work with them. I just met them and I might yet accustom. I mean, all of my besties in the first year are all in the same major which is Journalistic, except me. In Public Realtions, I'm trying hard to fit in. Maybe I'm just feeling insecure to live the college life without them in the class. 

Bonus a selfie with my best partner for reporting a news this week, the "eyebrows on fleek" girl, Icha.

And her lips! Lips on fleek.

And now, hello October! Please be nice because I know someone whose birthday in October is a nice person :)

Cheers,

Gendis.