I was very cold-hearted, even when the life-changing problem happened about 8 or 9 years ago, I shed no tears at all. Or when my head got in the latrine pit, I was 4, all I thought was kinda fun because I could make bubbles inside. I always thought that a person should always be tough and strong, there was no room for sadness until I couldn't feel any feeling. If I think about it again this time, I'm wondering how can I be the person I was before and after now?
...life's changing in a glimpse. I am now more sensitive and I don't know if it's a good thing or not, I just feel relieved. I used to feel nothing at all, but now I am more human, I guess? I realized that being vulnerable is one of the ways for us to be human, so why should I worry about being one? I wise up about feelings after I entered college I suppose, that human supposes to feel feelings, any kind of it. Happiness, sadness. You can always be mad, or surprised, or disappointed.
I come up to this because in the midst of my conversation with Ebo,
"Dulu kamu nggak pernah nangis, sekarang kok bisa?"
"Aku tumbuh dan aku mencintai diriku dengan menghargai perasaanku."
...life's changing in a glimpse. I am now more sensitive and I don't know if it's a good thing or not, I just feel relieved. I used to feel nothing at all, but now I am more human, I guess? I realized that being vulnerable is one of the ways for us to be human, so why should I worry about being one? I wise up about feelings after I entered college I suppose, that human supposes to feel feelings, any kind of it. Happiness, sadness. You can always be mad, or surprised, or disappointed.
I come up to this because in the midst of my conversation with Ebo,
"Dulu kamu nggak pernah nangis, sekarang kok bisa?"
"Aku tumbuh dan aku mencintai diriku dengan menghargai perasaanku."
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